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I Survived The Wait For Surgery
Next week I am having excision for my Endometriosis. As I type this, I am in utter agony.
I have survived a lot to get here. If you don’t know my story, I will give you a brief overview. I started having symptoms of Endometriosis between the ages of 8 and 10. My pain was bad enough to hospitalize me multiple times in middle school and caused me to lose an average of 40 days or so per school year in middle school. After a colonoscopy, CT scans, specialists and pain, they found nothing and told me to find a good therapist due to my complex family life and trauma.
I went through lots of medical trauma and personal trauma as I transitioned from middle school to high school. I developed PTSD and therefore do not remember much from that time. I was still in pain, but I was on autopilot and completely dissociative. The pain began bursting fully through my deep dissociation my senior year, when I began vomiting and fainting from the pain regularly.
By my Sophomore year of college, I couldn’t hold food down. When I met my now partner in 2018, I was 82 lbs. I finally went to the doctor after friends and other loved ones pushed me. I went through the same work-up as I did in middle school, and they again found nothing. I thank God regularly that I came across a post about Endometriosis on Instagram.
